Inactivity

Hi.

Please give me a chance to explain why I haven’t written anything, for the past month, here in my serious blog. My laptop’s keyboard and power adapter got busted, I had to send it to the service center for repair. The repair took almost a month, hence, my inactivity. It is a sad fact that my ability to write is dependent on the functionality of my laptop, and I hate to admit it, I just don’t write well with paper and ink.

Anyways, I had my laptop back several weeks ago but I had to cram for my school requirements. I do not even know why am I explaining such trivial things to… you.

On Work

Work is nothing but fun. Sure, there are times when work piles one after the other but having great co-workers surely eases the load. Speaking of workload, I have accepted an additional teaching load. My teaching assignment for this year is very confusing if I am to explain it to you, but I won’t. So don’t worry. He he

On Graduate School

I never thought graduate school will be very demanding of my time, energy, and intellect; I seriously thought of dropping out. I even asked myself whether I was willing to do this responsibility for the next (hopefully) three years, to think that I’m only on my first semester on my first year! A lot of people tell me that I can do it and personally, I actually believe that I can, it’s just that, I still do not know how to prioritize things. I tend to put “happenings with friends” on top of my graduate school requirements. And I realized, I brought all these graduate-school-related stress upon myself.

Also, it is ridiculous that I even thought of dropping out, when I have repeatedly told everyone that enrolling in graduate school is one of the best decisions I ever made. The last day of my first semester was all in my favor! I am taking it as a sign that I should never give up on this.

On Hobbies

Remember my Birthday wishlist? I granted myself one of my wishes and bought myself a film camera, a 50mm Canon FX. I struggled with the focus at first, putting two rolls of good film and photo opportunities to waste. However, on my third roll of film, I finally figured out how to work the distance meter!

Aside from that, last September, I spent two of my weekends in Batangas and Mindoro. This is partly the reason why I crammed my graduate school requirements. See what I’m talking about when I say I am the cause of my stress? I regret nothing, though!

Crazy month it was!

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Random things off the top of my head

This week was crazy! Our house was, once again, flooded! But this time, it was not because of a typhoon, but a monsoon. On the bright side, we were more adept and we managed to save most of our things. Unfortunately, we had to flee and evacuate to a relative’s house. Luckily, work and classes were suspended for almost a week, and I was able to take advantage of it by helping in cleaning our house.

Saturday came and since my school didn’t suspend classes unlike most universities, I have to face the reality of school works that await me. It was a good thing that I didn’t skip grad school, though, because I learned a lot of things today! Anyways, here are random things off the top of my head. I just feel that I have to share them with you (or else, my mind wouldn’t shut up about them)

  • Today, in my Philosophy class, we delved on Existentialism. What I realized during the discussion, is that, by this time, I should’ve found my essence, my purpose for existing in life. However, if you are like me, lost on the idea of my essence, we should find ways, grab opportunities, and make choices that will lead us to the realization of our essence. Our essence in life is not a thing that is waiting to be found, our essence is something that we act on. (You could argue with me about this, but I’m pretty sold with the idea. Plus, Existentialism also believes in the subjectivity of an idea. That is, what may be true for me, may not be true for you, vice versa.)
  • Studying in graduate school opened my eyes on the flaws of education and sad to say, there are many. As an educator, I know how to address some of these problems but the greater dilemma is that, I am just one person. I know my “little ways”, as a classmate told me, could result to something bigger, but what I want is not just change, but a revolution in education. Sounds idealistic, I know, but change has to begin somewhere and recognizing a need for change is a good start.
  • Lately, I have been thinking whether I should get a Blackberry or not. Studying Philosophy made me realize that I don’t need one (what do I need a Blackberry for, really?). But, there are times when my internet-dependent self dominates and  the desire to get a Blackberry (or an iPhone or an Android phone for that matter) just. won’t. die. I hope my philosophical-self will win over my internet-dependent self because I really do not need a Blackberry. (Repeat x infinity)

That’s it! In relation to finding my essence, I think I have found mine. Also, enrolling in graduate school is one of the best decisions I’ve made in my entire life, I’m so glad I did it!

Hihi. Sorry, high with learning.